crushed

rest in peace james brimer.

i miss him already. uncle james died over the weekend. his wife, two son's, daughter in law, and grandson were in texas visiting other family, upon their return to oklahoma kim found james with a broken neck and cold as ice in the kitchen floor.

he apparently passed away sometime early saturday morning. godspeed.

perhaps one of the most supportive men in my life. he was a huge cheerleader for me through all the turmoil. tonight kim talked of my strength. i now can say, i have none. i cannot imagine her pain. i barely held it together for a simple "i am sorry."

uncle james, thank you for everything. "where ever i go, i take you with me." - mle.

she called

garrison starr called me from criminal records so i could say hey. she proceded to give me shit about not coming to her show and studying everytime she is in town. HELLO!?!? i have a GPA to maintain. i <3 her anyways.

thanks cait and kat for arranging that. yall rock.

hatcher

i had this long piece i had written regarding the 14 year old who took her life as a result of child molestation but for some reason, i deleted it. it is stories like these that drive me and fuel the passion i have for the law and this very flawed so called justice system. the reason sex crimes are the most under reported crime in the nation is because the system puts the "victim/survivor" on trial NOT the prick who actually committed a crime.

i hate the way the media has covered this story. "the startling secret." i mean, come on. really.

i hurt for the young girl and her family because i know how hard it is.

the more days go by the more i am reminded of the two instances that happened twelve years apart by two different men, the trial, the testimony, the aquittal based upon "indictment of the wrong charges," the eating disorder, depression, identity crisis, and the pain i pulled my family through all for my own vindication. the anger and pain is still very real. as much as i would like to not think about it and let it control me, i cannot because my past is very much who i am today.

so many women have endured sexual misconduct, sex abuse, child molestaion and whatever else you choose to call it and it didnt make headline news for two days. oprah, ellen, melissa etheridge, and others.

lets not all jump down my throat for this.