red.line.

she called. it was nice to hear her voice for the first two minutes. and then "there is something i need to tell you re, i leave for iraq in april." how long? "fifteen months." silence.

my heart stopped instantly. part of me is glad she isnt here to see me cry and the other part of me is pissed she called. knowing if she was here i would have grabbed her and never let her leave. what if she never makes it back. i have only seen her twice maybe three times a year since we graduated but knowing she was safe in the U.S was enough. my best friend since 10th grade - the only person i talked to the last half of high school.

i remember the day she told me she was going to west point. a part of me died. what was wrong with princeton?

i am proud of her, and i always will be -

Hey baby, is that you?
Wow, your hair got so long.
Yeah, yeah, I love it, I really do.
Norma Jean, ain't that the song we'd sing in the car
Drivin' downtown, top down, makin' the rounds
Checking out the bands on Doheny Avenue.
Yeah, life throws you curves,
But you learn to swerve,
Me, I swung and I missed,
And the next thing ya know, I'm reminiscing...
Dreaming old dreams, wishing old wishes,
Like you would be back again.

I wake up and tear drops, they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then,
I head off to my job, guess not much has changed,
Punch the clock, head for home,
Check the phone, just in case,
Go to bed, dream of you,
That's what I'm doin' these days.
Yeah that's what I'm doin'

Someone told me, after college, you ran off to Vegas,
You married a rodeo cowboy,
WOW, that ain't the girl I knew,
Me, I've been a few places,
Mostly here and there once or twice,
Still sortin' out life, but I'm doin' all right,
Yeah, it's good to see you, too.

Well, hey girl you're late, and those planes, they don't wait,

But if you ever come back around this sleepy old town,
Promise me you'll stop in, to see an old friend, and until then

I wake up and tear drops, they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then,
I head off to my job, guess not much has changed,
Punch the clock, head for home,
Check the phone, just in case,
Go to bed, dream of you,
That's what I'm doin' these...


I wake up and tear drops, they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then,


I wake up and tear drops, they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then,
I wake up and tear drops, they fall down like rain,
I put on that old song we danced to and then

lt. gerheim i miss you already.

yoink

like woah. i am the busiest i've ever been. the women in the office love talking about how they have been there before and quite frankly i think they are all full of shit. the children in and out of the office are on my last damn nerve. how professional is it to be on the phone with clients while babies are crying or screaming or banging on the glass? as much as i love all of them i am SO annoyed by them when i have to stop what i am doing to make sure they arent tearing something up. fuck that.

this weekend i am most likely working on saturday - most of the day. i want to be caught up at the office by tuesday afternoon....or monday night!!! so i can be "off" like the rest of them. cait thankfully has been beyond patient with me working all the time. i love her more everyday. 4 years, comin' up.

i love working with julie more and more everyday. she really makes me happy at work, and i laugh alot with her. it is almost a relief every morning to hear her hollar "bobeana, i need you babe" because she has done something to the computer that she cant fix.

my first closing is in the morning! and my second house should go under contract tomorrow. things are lookin up!