shopping.and.other.news.

the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem....i think i finally/officially have a problem. :)

purchased in the last 3 weeks.

1. 64 gb iTouch
2. 12-string seagull canadian guitar
3. 24 inch iMac
4. bag full of goods from j.crew
5. p90x including the new videos
6. yo gabba gabba stuff for my prince charming
7. hotel size crate / mattress insert for my lil boy


tonight i went to the grocery store for more than just gatorade for the first time since cait threw me away. much to my surprise, the 5lb box of cuties is BACK!! bought all kinds of stuff - kind of exciting.

i've lost all the weight i need to lose so next is toning and getting ready for the re-appearance of some muscles. brother's tattoo artist should be back very soon and the inner bicep tattoo shall begin. so far there are too many plans to fit in such a small tender spot.

nettles got married saturday - what a bummer :)

started christmas shopping today...cyber monday! HEY!!

skinny.

how do you go from 155 to 118 in 9 months?

ALOT of exercise from January to April. ALOT of changing eating habits from April to July. and a lot of heartache from July until now. I have been steady at 115-120 for the last 60 days.

after two months of pulling my pants up and showing my underwear to the world, i've replaced all of my jeans. now my new ones are slightly big (the true religion outlet is TROUBLE for a jean snob)...back in an xs shirt which is fun. flat stomach and bird legs...now if only i can turn this into a 6 pack i'll be even better. it actually might help if i stop drinking beer everyday but then again, what fun is that.

i've recorded audio to the song below...maybe one day ill auto tune that beesh and post it.....maybe one day.

what.i'd.say.

this is an old earl thomas conley song that gary allan re-did in the 90s. both versions are similar...the lyrics are absolutely perfect. days get easier, sleep comes quicker, and the beer flows freely.

check out these lyrics - sat in my office and cried, and cried, and cried.

Talkin' to the mirror, whispering your name
It's just like you were here, you'd think I was insane
I hold these conversations in the silence of my room
Rehearsing all the things I'd say should I run into you

How's it goin', might be what I'd say
Well you broke my heart you know
Or it looks like rain today
Or God I've missed you
Since you went away
You're lookin' well
Or go to hell
Might be what I'd say

There's time I've been so angry
I could put my fist right through the wall
And then there's times I've come so close
To givin' you a call
I love you and I hate you
All at the same time
Then I pray you'll come back to me
Before I lose my mind

How's it goin', might be what I'd say
Well you broke my heart you know
Or it looks like rain today
Or God I've missed you
Since you went away
You're lookin' well
Or go to hell
Might be what I'd say

Or maybe, God I've missed you
Since you went away
You're lookin' well
Or go to hell
Might be what I'd say