april 6

april 6 is around the corner.

so many people have that birthday, a boss, a best friend from college, a really good friend’s girlfriend, and her.

i miss that little girl everyday. i can honestly say that i think about her everyday and wonder if she will ever know the truth.

i need to let go and move on and not hold on to dates and numbers and events. problem is, i am not ready.

she will be eight in just a few days, i havent seen her in 5 years on june 3.

why do i force myself to hurt and grieve - i am sure she has not a clue who i ever was, yet she changed my life.

to her i am now a stranger - to me, she flew to heaven to hang the moon and position the stars.

happy birthday angel girl.

m.l.e.

i got tickets to see melissa etheridge! i can’t fucking wait. lots of bitching amongst the atlanta ladies....they don’t like chastain, however we are guaranteed pit rows 1-13, how terrible can it be?! t.c. is trying to get tickets so we can go with him and all sit together, THAT would be fun.

the l word finale left a shit eating grin on my face. I am so thrilled that tina and bette are back together. i mean, they are gorgeous and oh so perfect. oh bette porter. thank goodness for one more season - it better rock the fucking house down.

the sugarland concert is next thursday. i havent seen them on stage in years. i only wish it was at their small hole in the wall venues like variety and roxy....instead of the fox. they have really made it - and i am proud to have been around to watch the band form and really solidify into something so amazing.

oh a john mayer kick for the last two weeks - say what you need to say....i wonder what’s up.

stuff

it has been awhile and i have thought of a few things i needed to say...

i am not under contract w/ verizon anymore...i love their network but i am obsessed with the iphone so we will see...

i hate roswell toyota with a passion - they are complete assholes. 10,000 mile service happened in sandy springs - i love those guys.

scion sent me a $200 off coupon on any service or accessory...i am going to use it on the spoiler. bitches. did i mention i HATE toyota of roswell...now nalley?

i need some sun on my legs...in a bad sort of way. i am thinking of the tanning bed...i said THINKING.

jake turned 1. he is a big boy.

yard sale at mom’s in three weeks. we are getting ready. time to clean out!

i need to get some new shirts and stuff for the spring/summer...not dress clothes, although i do need some of them as well.

i wonder how you “buy” a house and not pay for it. i know of two of these instances..oh how it bothers the fuck out of me.

my underarm itches, goodnight.

best

cait and i saw the best show ever at eddie’s friday night - in the round with g , michelle malone, and caroline aiken. generally there is at least one person in the line up i could live without, however all three of them are amazing.

i am beginning to wonder how i have listened to atlanta based acoustic music for years and have yet to even hear the name caroline aiken - the woman was phenomenal. she is in in her fifties and one hell of a songwriter with the clearest vocals and honed guitar skills, i was oh so impressed and slightly pissed off i hadn’t heard her before.

we have seen malone play a good number of times and last night i was almost drooling over her guitar skills - bad ass at forty-five.

and just in case this is a news flash to anyone - i have been seeing garrison live many many times a year for 7 years now based upon a recommendation from t.c. - back in the day.

today i discovered another new favorite store - banana republic.

cait and i met nana and lauren at the outlet and we all scored some good shit. i left with dress pants, sweater, oxford, polo, 2 pairs of boxers, jeans, 2 t-shirts, and 2 shorts.

cpg took me to the cheesecake factory for dinner - and THAT is my new favorite place to eat.

recap - best show ever, best talent ever, best company, best store, best dinner...

simply

the best.

express is perhaps my new favorite store - changing positions at work has forced me to start working on the wardrobe i worked so hard to build in college.

i love the producer pants and the 1x shirts....yes i will be a stud in the buckhead office. say what?

lump 2

holy career move - asset mgr. i so like the sound of that. shortly, in fact, very shortly i will make the move to c.a.m. what will i do with out j.c. on a daily basis...i haven’t figured that out. i will however, remain the bpo rockstar. this could be a fantastic thing in about a year. the first year could be a little rough but i will have insurance for the first time since may 5th.

speaking of may 5th. i remembered just saturday night the joy of riding with justin in jared’s jeep with no top...and no doors. we were bad asses of the graduating e.h.s. class. say what?

this grown up stuff is stressful...but i like being “big.”

maddox learned the duh word on saturday night. it was priceless - he quickly figured out the timing and laid it on callie pronto. i loved it!

new goal - to do well enough to buy a wrangler - my god i have to get one of those...on and a mortgage.

this morning i woke up unexpectedly at 5:18 so i just got up an went to the office - i was overly productive and it feels fantastic.

something rather insightful soon.

change

yesterday i took a leap with a little shove and became a big kid in the office full of moms. i joined the commission only team! i couldn’t be more excited and scared. i know i will be fine - i work way too many hours not to be.

i also am getting ready to file my own taxes for the first time in my life! i have my 1099’s from the office and getting old receipts of write offs together is already brutal and i just started. i have a feeling i will have more write offs than what i owe based on my “income.” we will see. between the garmin, cell phone, cell service, mileage, memory, and a few other items i should be good to go. so far i have over $5000.00 in mileage alone. sucks for my car/jeep but i am going to be so thankful in a few weeks.

looks like i finally put on my big girl underwear. watch out!

ick

nasty. have been sick then not so sick then sicker than before. at any rate, about this time a few years ago, cait and i were in park city. that was a whole new cold.

cait got a new car...and the new gladiator show isn’t as great as i remembered it once being.

thank goodness a.i. starts back tomorrow night!!!

music

it is about damn time that new music tuesdays return - well, “good” new music tuesdays anyway. off with the crap new releases already.

that is all.

fresh

i just threw away over 50 pens. i haven’t cleaned out my pen drawer since 11th grade - while tossing and digging i discovered a few of my favorite drug rep pens from cvs. oh the days of the white lab coat.

tonight cpg and i went to el porton and they seriously need to stop fucking with the cheese - every so often it tastes weird, tonight was every so often, clearly.

this morning i semi-met a lady who has yelled and cussed at me for the last 3 weeks - oh the change authority makes. she didn’t have the balls to get out of the car and i secretly was hoping she wouldn’t. her roommate handled the situation very well, kudos to her.