christmas 08

the last few weeks have been a chaotic blur - shopping, fever, shopping, wrapping, shopping, working...

run down of the day -

6 a.m. - shower

7 a.m. - mom and dad’s for christmas morning

9:30 a.m. - t.t. and papa’s for christmas morning

1 p.m. - uncle ed’s for christmas lunch

5p.m. - t.t. and papa’s for christmas dinner

one hell of a schedule but today has been wonderful with the exception of cpg’s cold.

my list:

tevas

north face vest

sketcher surf shoes

holister sweater and t shirt

banana republic cashmere sweater and socks

dolce light blue

two dress shirts, sweater, t shirt, three under shirts, two waffle shirts from j crew

khakis and cords from j crew

sevens for all mankind

five pair victoria secret underwear

five pairs of socks

three bras - one for the wedding

iphone car charger

oakley darts

half zip striped sweater

operation

r.c. helicopter (to fight with cait’s)

4 pack red bull

$25 taco mac

$25 target

key chain

and new years in cape san blas - on the beach for the start of ‘09

it is 9:30 and i feel like i ran a marathon - time to fall into bed with my sick girlfriend.

merry christmas!

nightmare

no sooner did i post the last blog, my phone rang and my brother screams that he and mom were in a bad wreck. i couldn’t breathe. he screamed mom is hurt meet us at the hospital.

i have never been more terrified than i was during the never ending drive to the hospital just 12 or so miles from home.

i got there to see her on the stretcher in a neck brace, clothes cut up, shattered nails, and bruises beginning to swell. nothing broken and no internal bleeding. she starts physical therapy tomorrow.

tad escaped with a few bumps and bruises - extremely lucky for not wearing a seat belt.

both are ok- dora the exploder is totaled and missing a wheel.

finally

FINALLY i have moved all of the files over to my laptop, and i just realized exactly why i had these blog files on my desktop in the first place....the pictures are on that computer.

thursday night at midnight i got my jacket from jcrew - it started at $168 and i paid a mere $59. the sleeves are a bit long, but i think it’s ok.

cait has been sick since friday - i am ready for her to get well. she spent most of the weekend in the bed and i read god shaped hole - tiffanie debartolo for the 5th time. i am nearly half way through it again.

this thursday we are going to garrison and adrianne at eddie’s. we haven’t been there in months. sunday we celebrate our fifth anniversary. i am excited and still don’t know what exactly we are going to do.

and another entry that is all over the place.

close

to my 24th birthday. j.crew it is.

it’s been a while -

couple things. big news is on the horizon.

cait and i found a subdivision we love and have picked a floor plan. the next two months are focused on eliminating the last $3600 in credit card debt. in january, hopefully, we will start building our first place.

obama made me happy on november 4th with his victory.

new music - taylor swift’s sophomore effort is fantastic. zac brown band’s cd finally dropped and i love love love it. david cook’s cd is eh alright. i have yet to dive in to randy houser but i love his voice.

the new macbook came out and i think i fell in love - i would love to have one but unless a miracle happens, it will have to wait....a long time. i need a coat for work, new dress shoes, another pair or two of 7’s, and clothes.

i cleaned out my closet for the first time in close to 6 years. it is a wonderful thing. as hard as i worked on that wardrobe, i am finally past it. and it feels good. there is probably a bit more that could stand to make it to good will on saturday but for now, i am satisfied...and old.

psshh

i got a new tie! all black - and a vest.

i havent “shopped” in forever! only for work clothes which is fun but not rockstar fun.

i did get another pair of pin stripe pants from express and a blue shirt - b/c ALLL ties match the light blue shirt.

my stud jeans are going to get hemmed. never have i ever been so nervous - what if the peeps who call me barley (at the cleaners) sew crooked or something.

i was challenged to look “famous” at the casino - pshhh i got this in the bag.

free in you

i stopped and actually listened to the words - i have never been able to put my relationship into words, until now.

A hard knock

A cold clock

Ticking off my time

A long look

But no luck

Couldn't seem to find

Or unwind

Into peace of mind

While I was trying

A quick glance

A big chance

My heart beat like a drum

I saw you

And I knew

Chances just don't come

Round again

Not like this

First a laugh

Then a kiss

And I'm free in you

I've got no worries on my mind

I know what to do

That's to treat you right

And love you kind

Thank you ever on my mind

Love is just like breathing

When it's true

And I'm free in you

The lost time

And self pride

Are my big mistakes

A clear voice

A bad choice

Sounding like an ache

In my day

Not too bad

But too real

To go away

But now I'm free in you

I've got no worries on my mind

I know what to do

That's to treat you right

And love you kind

Thank you ever on my mind

Love is just like breathing

When it's true

And I'm free in you

And I don't know

How you show

Such gentle disregard

For the ugly in me

That I see

That for so long

I took so hard

(I took so hard)

And I truly believe

(I truly believe)

That you see the best in me

(That you see the best in me)

I'm in love

We all love

And that thought

Sets me free

Free in you

Got no worries on my mind

I know what to do

That's to treat you right

And love you kind

Thank you ever on my mind

Love is just like breathing

When it's true

And I'm free in you

Yes I'm free in you - e. saliers

she has loved me through the ugly, and i’m free in you. :)

mmm hmmm

that is the print on my new vans....bad ass - i know.

can we talk about gas for a second? there is a serious run on gas and i am overly frustrated with the lines and lack of gas in my tank - this is ridiculous.

off to union for dinner - seems fancy-ish.

cpg is a lil sick, i just wish she felt better.

b.b. is out of town so mon-wed will be interesting.

that is all.

logical

lyrics that describe alot of people....oh and i got my new glasses today.

if at first you dont succeed
simply lower expectations
your give up line is immediate
with out any hesitations

oh, you put off your procrastination tomorrow
and go get drunk off the money that you borrowed
and how you deal with your shame
is by never letting your self take the blame

you claim you're a product of what you've been through
as if no one else in the world has it harder than you do
and you say that there's never anybody around
did you ever think it was because you keep letting them down

so, stop all this fucking around its just logical, logical
no life is disaster bound, it's just what you've turned into
and you say theres no way cause no one loves u but u
and they never will until you do

i'll admit, current civilization
now depends on instant gratification
anything can be delivered at your door
but anything worth having is worth waiting for

what's worse though is your aware you've decided willingly
that you're turning yourself into your own worst enemy
for your rose colored glasses you traded your soul
just to get the illusion your life is under control - lindsey hinkle

oakley

label brat - i know.

BUT my new glasses are oakley.....and i love it.

AND i bought a 40” samsung t.v. - yeah i’m an adult.

fuckin stud

bri's

What' s the last mistake you made?

not going to bed.

Is the sun shining?

nope - dark and raining

Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?

yep

Do you like text messaging?

yep

Are you having a good/ bad hair day?

i dont think i ever have a good hair day - it is always on my nerves

What was your last purchase?

dinner at taco mac

Are you wearing any make-up right now?

negative

What are your plans for later ?

sleep

Does anyone like you?

perhaps

What is your current obsession?

work

Do you have a dog?

jake

Ever been kissed under mistletoe?

i think it was fake - but still

Would you ever smile at a stranger?

sure

Ever done a random act of kindness?

maybe - i am sort of an ass

Do your toenails have nail polish on them?

nope

When' s the last time you wore eyeliner?

few years

Last curse word you said was?

who knows, they come rolling out

Are your lips chapped?

maybe a little

Are you currently jealous?

of what?

Do you own an ipod?

yes

Did you have a dream last night ?

not sure

What made you smile today ?

girlfriend

Are you mad at anyone?

mastercard..brandsmart - just off of principle

Who is the most random person you know?

someone at work.

What' s going on this weekend?

addison’s birthday

Anything bothering you?

cait is in school - sucks

Do you wish you were someone else?

nope i am famous

What jewelry are you wearing?

rings, tiff. necklace, earings

Ate any exotic food lately?

steak - i just started eating meat.

Are you easily amused?

i think so.

Can you lick your elbow ?

not trying

Do you have a crush right now?

is it a crush if it is a 5 year crush?

What is on your mind just this second?

cait’s lab report that i have just been commissioned to do

Are you happy with your given name?

somedays....i like bailey better

What is your guaranteed weeping movie ?

i dont watch movies

What is the one thing you like to do alone ?

pee

What do you carry with you at all times ?

wallet, keys, phone

Favorite communication method?

text

Do you own a Bible ?

yes

What should you be doing instead of this?

cait’s paper or my project for todd

Who was the last person who called you?

frenchie

What' s the relationship between you and the last person you texted?

he is my daddy

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?

everyday!

Who was the last person to send you a myspace message?

no clue - maybe dusty

What are you doing tomorrow?

working

Whats the last thing you had to drink ?

miller lite

What was the last thing you ate?

A piece of toffe e choco late bar. YUM!

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?

cait is in school :( and i have work to do

Have you spoken to your mother today ?

yes

When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?

last night

Are you happy ?

of course

Is having sex on your mind?

is now

Would it hurt seeing someone kiss the last guy/ girl you kissed?

um i’d kill both of them

Do you hate your recent ex boyfriend/ girlfriend ?

i dont have a recent ex

What do you usually do first in the morning?

pee

Do you know anyone that smoke s pot?

nope

Would you kiss someone to make your bf/ gf mad?

heck no

Are you different now than you were a year ago?

yep

Are you sarcastic?

alot

Is there a song that makes you think of the last person you kissed?

quite a few

Has anyone ever seen you in your under wear?

everyday prolly

Do you love anyone right now?

yep i do

tough

and brandsmart sucks too.

i have a brandsmart mastercard....expired of course. the first rep told cait that we have to call and ask for the replacement card. UM NO.

so brandsmart sends these lame emails everyweek about what is on sale - this week 40” bad ass

samsung lcd. however!!! there was no way to give us the temporary card number so that we could use the card (and the no interest until 1/10) to get the t.v.

ah maybe we didn’t need it anyway....i closed the account and they can both rot.

fave

1. 1.iPhone - i love this damn thing
   

2. 2.flipping out - the show
   

3. 3.hurley t-shirts - stud
   

4. 4.lindsey hinkle - logical, whole, thicker than water, blackberry winter
   

5. 5.rainbow sherbet in a cone - totally obsessed
   

6. 6.ellen - is it monday yet?

beef

ew things on my nerves at the moment -

1. nasty comments made by die hard sugarland fans (and radio d.j.’s who think they have a clue) that weren’t around in the beginning in regards to the lawsuit filed 7/29/08. kristen hall was the brain behind the band - marketing, managing, and booking. she remains a fantastic songwriter. had something happened to nettles and bush after hall left and the band fizzled, they would want to collect losses from her as that was the agreement. **i love sugarland and i love kristen hall, i miss the old days often **
   

2. lint that gets in to the case of my iphone.
   

3. songs purchased on itunes cannot be moved into garageband - i am no longer buying new releases via itunes for this reason.
   

4. headaches over my eyes and temples have made the last week miserable - i hope it is something the eye doctor can correct.
   

5. i am far less productive at the office on fridays in casual clothes - the dress pants and shirts have given me a horrible complex.
   

6. i wake up every morning at 5:30 a.m. when the alarm is set for 6.

oh shiz

just back from the beach. i had a blast. the house was amazing, the water was amazing, and the food....amazing.

mornings were spent on the beach with the waves, bocce ball, and the sand. afternoons encompassed “beverages” at the pool. nights involved restaurants, road trips, and “beverages.”

first paid vacation = complete! i really had a blast. i think cait and i did a fantastic job financiall

etheridge and life

mle played chastain last night. i got cait and i pretty damn good seats - 8th row a little left of center. it was phenomenal.

the show was amazing! a few songs in, we locked eyes once the older ladies took a seat and sang:

“i wanna find me a car, with only one headlight

a straight 6 ford on a good luck night,

i wanna roll down the windows and teach you to fly

give you a thrill, the kind you can’t buy”

and i nearly freaked

she smiled right at me a handful of times...which WILL put you on a head trip.

being so close to a talent of that magnitude rocked. for the first time ever (that i have seen) there were TONS of empty seats. regardless, she sounded great and thankfully played alot of album cuts from all of her records and quite a few from the awaking....which every human should own. the material comes across very political but she has a way with words and melodies that is unparalleled in this universe. i love her more every time i see her live - go figure. the most entertaining songwriter. she rocks.

on another note, but not TOTALLY unrelated, i am overly content with my life now. i have an amazing relationship with my girlfriend, and my career (yes yes it is) is taking off almost flawlessly. it is wonderful to be who you really are in a business environment. i really have the best co-workers around.

50 from jami

1) Favorite hobby? music

2) Have you ever smoked heroin? negative

3) Do you own guns? negative

4) What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? i dont go - cept for cherry limeade

5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? no

6) What do you think of hot dogs? i think i have to eat them sometimes

7) Favorite Christmas song? all i want for xmas is a real good tan - k.c.

8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? starbucks, juice, choc. milk

9) Can you do push ups? sure

10) Can you do a chin up? sure

11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry? cait’s ring, spinner ring, and tiff. necklace from the parentals

12) Do you like blue cheese? yup

13) Ever been in a car wreck? yup

14) Do you have ADD? i did at the beginning of college....i can control it now sorta

15) What's one trait that you hate about yourself? i need to lose 15 lbs....

16) Middle name? bailey

17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..

1) l.c. is retarded

2) it is 10:30

3) melissa etheridge on friday!!!!

18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday

nothing!

19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink. coke zero, bud select, gatorade

20) Current worry? fuckin continuing ed

21) Current hate right now? him

23) How did you bring in the New Year? with my girlfriend and my fam.

24) Where would you like to be right now? w/ her in the sand

25) Name three people who will complete this? eh

26) Do you own slippers? yep

27) What shirt are you wearing? under shirt...lame i know

28) Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? nope

29) Can you whistle? not well

31) Would you be a pirate? sure but i dont know what they do

32) What songs do you sing in the shower? deb, hinkle, halcyon, indigo’s

33) Favorite girl's name? mason

34) Favorite boy's name? jake

35) What's in your pocket? no pockets

36) Last thing that made you laugh? cait messing w/ l.c.

37) Best bed sheets as a child? i had boring sheets as a kid

38) Worst injury you've ever had? broken forearm...i think

39) Do you love where you live? yes

40) How many TVs do you have in your house? 3

41) Who is your loudest friend? hmm up for grabs

42) How many dogs do you have? 1

43) Does someone have a crush on you? she might

44?? why is there always a question missing

45) What is your favorite book? to kill a mockingbird

46) What is your favorite candy? twix and reeces

47) Favorite Sports Team? vols

48) What song do you want played at your funeral? um no

49) What were you doing 12 AM last night? sleeping

50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? i’m warm

5 years

the usual annual post...that i had no intentions of writing until i could not keep the lump in my throat a minute longer.

that nagging tear in my right eye has been there since i woke up this morning. the thought of this day has been hidden - i try not to think about it.

my mission: to finally put this in a safe place and move forward. i say every year i am not ready. i am not ready to stop hurting but this year, i wanted so badly to look up and notice that june 3rd passed without a second thought.

tomorrow i will wonder how i made it 5 long years and i will know the answers. they all have a name and a significant place on a shelf i call my heart. so many words are spoken out of admiration and respect - still it feels wrong. still a part of me is raw.

the bigger part of me wants to be that person that is capable of letting go, putting the pain away, and being the visual i feel that i should be.

in five years i have conquered 2 trials and countless days spent laying in the floor convulsing in anger and sadness.

the eating disorder sickening feeling has surfaced and i have faught it all day - another bout with that is the last thing i need...emotionally anyway.

i want to say that this song on my friend rachel's cd - has saved me these last few days. i love her and i am honored to say that i carried these lyrics in my pocket through my second trial in its entirety.

lean

it makes me wanna cry to see you walk through each day
like you're in hell on earth
there are no words
and i cant change the cards you've been handed
it's not fair and i cant stand that it turned out this way
so all i an say is

lean
if you need to
i will hold you
i wanna make this lighter and
smile
like you mean it
you dont have to brave it on your own
you're a fighter
but even heroes need to
lean

you wont show your scars to no one
always trying to be the strong one
and save the day
but you're not okay
cause you can't run when you're on empty
and i can't help if you won't let me
this burden you're draggin
ain't even yours to hold
so just let it go and

lean
if you need to
i will hold you
i wanna make this lighter and
smile
like you mean it
you dont have to brave it on your own
you're a fighter
but even heroes need to
lean

cry some tears
admit you're scared
and know that i'm right here so

lean
if you need to
i will hold you
i wanna make this lighter and
smile
like you mean it
you dont have to brave it on your own
you're a fighter
but even heroes need to
lean

take me as i am

a lyric -

They keep staring at my tattoos

We all live with the scars we choose

They may hurt like hell

But they all make us stronger - s.l.

i want another tattoo.

on a side note, look at nettles <3. there has to be more of these somewhere...this was the 4th or 5th concert in 04.

how young were we....at least my hair was somewhat of the bad ass equivalent

bama

we painted cait’s memaw’s house in clanton saturday and sunday. i am NO painter even though i talked a damn good game.

oh and i went to the peach place and picked peaches.

disclaimer : i have no career in painting or peach picking.

tons of idiots on the road this weekend....wtf, really?

today we were at lib’s pool....which is top secret b/c t.t. never really called. we just showed up with paige and nemo and acted like we knew what we were doing....borrowing lib’s POOL! i love it.

all i wanna do

that performance was AMAZING on the ACMs.

really.

and the video - hot damn.

the boy

the lump came back benign. thank goodness.

in other news, i am being promoted june 1. ah ahem - i am really excited. i love it down there.

i am so frustrated with mens clothes at express.....i have been wearing the small 1mx BUT i need an extra small....and they have like 5 total in the whole damn store.

dinner at mom’s.

tonight is the ACM’s and sugarland is performing all i wanna do....and i cant wait.

i <3 j.n.

jake

my little man.


a bump came up on his leg about two weeks ago. it got bigger. we went to the doctor, $500 to remove it. there is no way we can afford it. 

another few days, it gets bigger.

another vet, watch it and take the antibiotic, if it gets bigger we will remove it.

it is hard - not a good sign. awkward place to operate - not a good sign. growing - not a good sign. on his leg - good sign. he is a baby - good sign. no other side effects - good sign.

my baby boy is having surgery on wednesday morning to remove hopefully just the bump, not his leg.

if this mass is cancerous i will go broke paying for his treatment. i cannot let him go. 



your moms love you little boy.



i never thought i would feel this way about a dog. i rush home every day to see him. call cait to see how his morning was, worry about his every move...and now this. 

all of the doctors have scared us, i hope they are wrong, i hope he is going to be alright with four legs and not three.

above everything else, i want him to have a full life, no matter what. and i will do whatever i have to do, to make that happen. 

tonight i hope that cait noticed it early enough. i hope that the antibiotic for the last week have done some good. i hope it is benign. i hope they are wrong. i hope she is right. i hope that he is too young to have what many think he does. i hope they can close his incision. 

too many emotions. one sweet face. two brown eyes wondering why all we do is cry and hold his 75 pound frame as tight as we can. 

i love him.

fight, handsome boy, fight - and we will fight for u.

i will remember you...

today she turns 8.

ironically we just finished watching the sarah mclachlan storytellers dvd, she didn’t play this song - thankfully. 



for her:

I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories



Remember the good times that we had?

I let them slip away from us when things got bad

How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun

Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one



I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories



I’m so tired but I can’t sleep

Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep

It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word

We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard



But I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories



I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose

Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose

Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night

You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light



And I will remember you

Will you remember me? 

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories



And I will remember you

Will you remember me? 

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories


Weep not for the memories

sugarland @ the fox

WHAT A SHOW! from the variety playhouse to the roxy, hi fi buys to selling out the fucking fox theater - THEY ROCK. i was totally blown away - again.



i remember seeing them play the mini stage at country fair 4 years ago, thinking who are these people? and now i have never been more moved and proud of a hometown band that i watch grow from the bottom up, inside - out and outside - in. 



tonight the curtain dropped and flood gates opened. i thought about aunt kristen and where she was and what she was thinking. i miss her and hearing her and seeing her. tough love.



jennifer and kristian - what a duo. i mean, really. it was so surreal. i remember texting kathy thinking HOLY SHIT - these are the same people cait, kathy, and i stood at their feet for YEARS. 



i used to make shirts w/ sayings on them for kristen and jennifer and kristian always got a kick out of them.



anyways, i am SO happy for them and seeing them play to a sold out home town crowd was stunning - really.



i <3 them!



OHHHH and the new record is going to be FUCKING FABULOUS! did that sound gay?

amy kuney

so i was on youtube when i first walked in the door tonight - the office was intense the last oh, three hours i was there. 



anyway, i stumbled upon amy kuney - who rocks. check out her covers on youtube...but just go to her myspace page.



http://www.myspace.com/amykuney



all of us lyric whores can appreciate her.



i said to cait earlier, " she looks like kat von d would sound." BUT WHAT I MEANT WAS the girl can sing, really well....AND looks like kat von d.

quirk

talking to mindy tonight i was reminded of the weird little things i dont even quite understand.



i throw up every time i brush my teeth.



i cant eat sandwiches on regular bread - i only eat the bites w/ crust. especially if it is turkey or chicken or some meat.



cait has to fix the covers every night before i go to bed b/c she doesnt make her bed when she gets up in the morning....i cant do it!



i have a strict routine in the morning and if i do something out of order my whole day is ruined....or i have to go back to the beginning and start over.



by 10 a.m. every morning my hair is up - and i dont even look at the clock, it just happens.



it is very rare that i go to bed with dishes in the sink.



every night when i lock the office, i walk across the parking lot to my car get in, get out and go back to check the door, TWICE. it is ridiculous.

i set my alarm 3 times every night as well.



i am overly anal about my laundry and the way that it is folded.



my inner red comes out when i get angry.



i seem like a pushover but you will know i am in charge in no time, just try me.



um, i do go to the nail lady...only for my feet. eek. i just lost major points there.



i am sure there are others but for now, this will suffice.

april 6

april 6 is around the corner.

so many people have that birthday, a boss, a best friend from college, a really good friend’s girlfriend, and her.

i miss that little girl everyday. i can honestly say that i think about her everyday and wonder if she will ever know the truth.

i need to let go and move on and not hold on to dates and numbers and events. problem is, i am not ready.

she will be eight in just a few days, i havent seen her in 5 years on june 3.

why do i force myself to hurt and grieve - i am sure she has not a clue who i ever was, yet she changed my life.

to her i am now a stranger - to me, she flew to heaven to hang the moon and position the stars.

happy birthday angel girl.

m.l.e.

i got tickets to see melissa etheridge! i can’t fucking wait. lots of bitching amongst the atlanta ladies....they don’t like chastain, however we are guaranteed pit rows 1-13, how terrible can it be?! t.c. is trying to get tickets so we can go with him and all sit together, THAT would be fun.

the l word finale left a shit eating grin on my face. I am so thrilled that tina and bette are back together. i mean, they are gorgeous and oh so perfect. oh bette porter. thank goodness for one more season - it better rock the fucking house down.

the sugarland concert is next thursday. i havent seen them on stage in years. i only wish it was at their small hole in the wall venues like variety and roxy....instead of the fox. they have really made it - and i am proud to have been around to watch the band form and really solidify into something so amazing.

oh a john mayer kick for the last two weeks - say what you need to say....i wonder what’s up.

stuff

it has been awhile and i have thought of a few things i needed to say...

i am not under contract w/ verizon anymore...i love their network but i am obsessed with the iphone so we will see...

i hate roswell toyota with a passion - they are complete assholes. 10,000 mile service happened in sandy springs - i love those guys.

scion sent me a $200 off coupon on any service or accessory...i am going to use it on the spoiler. bitches. did i mention i HATE toyota of roswell...now nalley?

i need some sun on my legs...in a bad sort of way. i am thinking of the tanning bed...i said THINKING.

jake turned 1. he is a big boy.

yard sale at mom’s in three weeks. we are getting ready. time to clean out!

i need to get some new shirts and stuff for the spring/summer...not dress clothes, although i do need some of them as well.

i wonder how you “buy” a house and not pay for it. i know of two of these instances..oh how it bothers the fuck out of me.

my underarm itches, goodnight.

best

cait and i saw the best show ever at eddie’s friday night - in the round with g , michelle malone, and caroline aiken. generally there is at least one person in the line up i could live without, however all three of them are amazing.

i am beginning to wonder how i have listened to atlanta based acoustic music for years and have yet to even hear the name caroline aiken - the woman was phenomenal. she is in in her fifties and one hell of a songwriter with the clearest vocals and honed guitar skills, i was oh so impressed and slightly pissed off i hadn’t heard her before.

we have seen malone play a good number of times and last night i was almost drooling over her guitar skills - bad ass at forty-five.

and just in case this is a news flash to anyone - i have been seeing garrison live many many times a year for 7 years now based upon a recommendation from t.c. - back in the day.

today i discovered another new favorite store - banana republic.

cait and i met nana and lauren at the outlet and we all scored some good shit. i left with dress pants, sweater, oxford, polo, 2 pairs of boxers, jeans, 2 t-shirts, and 2 shorts.

cpg took me to the cheesecake factory for dinner - and THAT is my new favorite place to eat.

recap - best show ever, best talent ever, best company, best store, best dinner...

simply

the best.

express is perhaps my new favorite store - changing positions at work has forced me to start working on the wardrobe i worked so hard to build in college.

i love the producer pants and the 1x shirts....yes i will be a stud in the buckhead office. say what?

lump 2

holy career move - asset mgr. i so like the sound of that. shortly, in fact, very shortly i will make the move to c.a.m. what will i do with out j.c. on a daily basis...i haven’t figured that out. i will however, remain the bpo rockstar. this could be a fantastic thing in about a year. the first year could be a little rough but i will have insurance for the first time since may 5th.

speaking of may 5th. i remembered just saturday night the joy of riding with justin in jared’s jeep with no top...and no doors. we were bad asses of the graduating e.h.s. class. say what?

this grown up stuff is stressful...but i like being “big.”

maddox learned the duh word on saturday night. it was priceless - he quickly figured out the timing and laid it on callie pronto. i loved it!

new goal - to do well enough to buy a wrangler - my god i have to get one of those...on and a mortgage.

this morning i woke up unexpectedly at 5:18 so i just got up an went to the office - i was overly productive and it feels fantastic.

something rather insightful soon.

change

yesterday i took a leap with a little shove and became a big kid in the office full of moms. i joined the commission only team! i couldn’t be more excited and scared. i know i will be fine - i work way too many hours not to be.

i also am getting ready to file my own taxes for the first time in my life! i have my 1099’s from the office and getting old receipts of write offs together is already brutal and i just started. i have a feeling i will have more write offs than what i owe based on my “income.” we will see. between the garmin, cell phone, cell service, mileage, memory, and a few other items i should be good to go. so far i have over $5000.00 in mileage alone. sucks for my car/jeep but i am going to be so thankful in a few weeks.

looks like i finally put on my big girl underwear. watch out!

ick

nasty. have been sick then not so sick then sicker than before. at any rate, about this time a few years ago, cait and i were in park city. that was a whole new cold.

cait got a new car...and the new gladiator show isn’t as great as i remembered it once being.

thank goodness a.i. starts back tomorrow night!!!

music

it is about damn time that new music tuesdays return - well, “good” new music tuesdays anyway. off with the crap new releases already.

that is all.

fresh

i just threw away over 50 pens. i haven’t cleaned out my pen drawer since 11th grade - while tossing and digging i discovered a few of my favorite drug rep pens from cvs. oh the days of the white lab coat.

tonight cpg and i went to el porton and they seriously need to stop fucking with the cheese - every so often it tastes weird, tonight was every so often, clearly.

this morning i semi-met a lady who has yelled and cussed at me for the last 3 weeks - oh the change authority makes. she didn’t have the balls to get out of the car and i secretly was hoping she wouldn’t. her roommate handled the situation very well, kudos to her.