confession: i'm a lot to handle. i'm intense. i'm super focused. i'm o.c.d. i suffer from g.a.d.
for the better part of the last year i've worked on me. who i am, who i was, and who i ultimately want to be. everything is under control 97% - 97.5% of the time. i have had generally everyone who knew me before notice the difference which is encouraging. all of this to say that sometimes i do fall off the turnip truck and act ridiculous.
i know that i need A LOT going on to stay occupied and grounded. work is slowing down. i spend a good amount of time reading which is my default distraction. i'm re-focusing on music and playing (which sadly comes in spurts, but the lulls are often short). the last few days i've been a pain in my own ass and those around me, i am positive of it. even while i'm panicking, i know what is happening to me and i cannot control it. luckily, for me, and you, and us, it is rare. very rare, and i can deal with that.
a lot of change in the air and i've got good people around me.
i.feel.better.
i.feel.more.like.me.
i'm.okay.
